PackerGrL's Blog

Over the years I feel like I have done many things with good intentions. Some things I know were truly good, like my many hours volunteering, and other things I'm sure I did with good intentions but they probably didn't end up the way I hoped. Whether it was just due to a poor decision or poor time management these things happen to everyone I guess.

Lately, I feel like, again, I try to do things with good intentions, but in the back of my mind I question if it is truly good or not. I second guess myself. I want to learn from past mistakes but sometimes I wonder if I dwell too much on them.

I have a great opportunity to volunteer to help out on campus and gain valuable experience in a field I want to eventually go in, BUT again, even though I am doing this with good intentions will it blow up in my face in the end? I told myself going into this new volunteer venture that I wouldn't overdo it but when it comes down to it can I trust myself? When it comes to priorities will I be able to focus on my studies and not be caught up with this new, fun, volunteer opportunity that I am interested in pursuing as a career someday?

I think I can handle it. I have matured the past few years but I guess what bothers me most is that I question myself and my actions. Don't get me wrong, this is a good quality to have, I mean it's better than having no self control and stuff but it can shake your confidence.

Anyway, I have some decisions to make I guess on how much I want to commit to this volunteer group. It'll be around for a while if I'm not involved this second. I just need to prayfully think about it and see what God has planned for me.
I just feel that sometimes writing down your thoughts helps and in this case, although no answers were really found, I feel better.

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